The Roller Coaster of Emotions

This last week I've felt like I was back on a crazy roller coaster of emotions, many ups and downs. I met with my new doctor who I love . He is very personable, optimistic, and has the highest success rate with IVF in our area. I feel really good about him and his practice. Unfortunately, his office does not take our insurance and it cost me $220 for our first visit and an additional $950 to schedule IVF in April. My feelings of goodness and love have turned into major anxiety. Suddenly I wish our finances were better. I have came down with a cold and my best friend is currently in the hospital with major heart complications. I've been taken her five year old every weekend, who I love and adore, but my stress level seems high and now I have all of these "what ifs" running through my head. What if this isn't the right time? What if it doesn't work? What if I'm still left childless at the end of all of this? I'm generally very positive but right now I feel like I have a gray cloud swarming over me and I need it to pass quickly. Any suggestions on how to eliminate stress and anxiety?

Snow Day

I'm ready for spring but thankful for the snow day. We already have about eight inches on the ground and it is still falling. It really is beautiful unless you are shoveling or driving in it. A while back I read a book by a woman who claims that at 42 she became pregnant "naturally" by changing her lifestyle, mainly her diet. She believes that by fasting for three days you can release all of the toxins from your body and basically will be healthier after. During the fast you can have juices (made fresh) of course and organic fruits and vegetables if need be. I have had an organic apple and water so far today and I'm getting ready to make my first batch of juice. The acupuncturist that I'm seeing told me three days is to long to do this fast and she would prefer I only fast for one day. I'm thinking of compromising and doing it for two days depending on how this first day goes. After the fast you are suppose to eat only organic products especially meats, milk and eggs. At least there are a lot more organic products to choose from now than there were a few years ago. I was impressed with my first shopping trip to Trader Joe's, lots of fresh organic products. If someone would have told me two years ago I would be fasting and doing acupuncture I wouldn't have believed them. Funny all of the crazy things we do to have a baby, when others seem to get pregnant so easily. I've stopped trying to analyse why this is the case. I've just decided that all of us have different journeys and there are no answers for now. I hope 2011 is a great year for fertility!