Saturday, May 19, 2012

It has begun......

So this cycle has begun; I started my Lupron shots on Wednesday, and so far no side effects. I actually am feeling pretty good. The weather here is warm, and my schedule is beginning to slow down a little, and for that I'm thankful. C's dad got married last weekend, and the whole event was rather stressful. His new wife is not someone that I would have choose for him, but I've learned to accept we can not choose who are loved ones fall in love with. At least it was a good distraction from Mother's Day, last Mother's day I had just found out I was pregnant and than we shortly miscarried. As I start this cycle I don't feel scared, nervous, or excited. I feel a little numb honestly. I feel hopeful, even though I know the odds are not in our favor. I feel like this probably will be the last time we roll the dice. I hope I get my miracle, but since I've been to this rodeo before, I know the outcome is out of my control. I hope all of you have a wonderful weekend!

4 comments:

  1. Wishing you lots of baby dust this month!

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  2. I want to give you a hug. And wish you luck and continued hope for this cycle.

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  3. Excited for this new cycle for you! Everything's crossed that this is the cycle that gets you your take home baby!!!

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  4. Know how you feel about feeling hopeful... even with the stats against us :( Hoping that both our last cycles are the ones for us :)) xoxo

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