Saturday, March 31, 2012

Moving on and keeping strong

This week I finally had my appointment with my family doctor to receive my referral to have my blood work completed to find out if I have "natural killer cells" The appointment did not got as I expected, but in the end my doctor said she would make sure my referral was written, and would support whatever decision I made. The truth is I would have the tests done without the referral. I think it's important at this point in the game. But if I can save over $800 with the referral, I'm happy to jump through the hoops, as you guys know IF is not cheap! My family doctor thinks I should take a step back from trying to become pregnant again and focus on adoption. I'm open to adoption. I would love to adopt and it's been on my mind a lot lately. But as all of you know it's not an easy process. It's not like I can run over to the local Target and pick up a baby, and I still have those two frozen embryos that I would love to become a little baby that I carry home from the hospital someday. My family doctor thinks my body has been through a lot and the fact that I'm turning 39 in November doesn't help my odds. OH MY God am I really going to be 39? Where has the time gone? She made some valid points and I believe that there is a time that we all have to throw in the towel. But I also believe that it's not my time. I do believe it's time to get more involved in the adoption process though, to start finding out more information and looking at organizations that we would be a good fit for. I started researching before but became overwhelmed with all of the information available. As much as I love teaching college I'm looking forward to the end of April when the semester ends. This will give me more time to research and also prepare my body for our last two embryos. Today I believe that if I really want to be a mother I can make it happen. I just hope it's sooner rather than later!

6 comments:

  1. Hope, determination and the love you already have for your future child/ren will get you there :)) xoxo

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  2. Hang in there girlie. Glad you have some kind of plan going forward.

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  3. Make sure they are testing for uterine natural killer cells, not natural killer cells in your blood. They are not the same thing and do not give you the same information.

    Also, if you do change to the name brand medicine, you want to have your levels checked again after 6 weeks to make sure things are stable.

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  4. That sounds like a tough conversation to have with your doc. I like your plan!

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  5. What a tough convo on any level with anyone. I admire your determination & drive. Trust your gut. You have to do what YOU are comfortable with. But sounds like you already know that.

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