Thursday, June 28, 2012

Nothing has Changed

Well I had the second blood test done today, like the nurse recommended and nothing has changed. I'm still at a one, actually .5. So I'm  definately not pregnant, although I really already knew that. But some strange part of me was still hoping for a miracle, as weird as that sounds. In the near future I need to move on to Plan B, whatever Plan B ends up being. I looked at adoption and foster care before but honestly I became so overwhelmed with all of the reserach out there. Should we try foster care? Should we try to adopt in our state? In a different state? Internationally? Truthfully, I dont know where to start. Does anyone know a good place to start?

I want to start researching. I want to have goals. But I also know I need a little time to heal before I take another plunge. Truthfully, I would not be up for another disappointment right now. I'm going to try to enjoy the summer, focus on my job, and my amazing family and friends. Thanks again for all of your love and support. I will be catching up with all of your blogs shortly!


  1. I have definitely been there. The nurse tells you you're done, that there's no hope. And yet... You hope and wish for a miracle. I'm so sorry you didn't get your miracle.

    I wish I could help you with how to start researching. I would probably read some books about adoption, read some other people's experiences. But I think it's very wise to take some time to heal, to regroup, and to get your strength up before you go another direction. From what I understand, adoption or fostering can be very overwhelming, and a lot of work. Take some time...

    Sending you love as you get over this cycle...

  2. I'm so sorry this cycle did not work. I hope you get Plan B together and it does bring you your miracle.

  3. Oh sandy I am so sorry. I wish there was something I could say to make the pain hurt a little less. I truly hope you can find some things over these next few weeks that make you happy and help you figure out what direction to go in next...thinking of you

  4. I'm so so sorry... thinking of you with all my heart xoxo